Sean continued to act out in high school. Once the victim, he now became the bully. When anyone taunted him, he fought back swiftly. He hunted down those who harmed him, including those that he hadn’t spoken to in years.
One day though, Sean started feeling different. He started feeling a twinge of guilt whenever he saw the hurt on his victim’s face. Sean didn’t understand why he was changing. God was about to draw him into a much-needed healing process.
Sean began to realize how dysfunctional and wrong his behavior was. He made a commitment to stop mistreating others and himself. At first this was difficult and he had mixed results. Some days he ate healthy and other days he returned to binge eating.
When Sean was twenty years old, God led him through some specific memories. Sean revisited his experience with losing his bicycle at 7 years old. He felt the pain of loss like he never had before. This was actually the first time he allowed himself the luxury of grieving his loss.
Sean realized for the first time that he didn’t deserve his parents’ harsh response to someone stealing his bicycle. His parents didn’t give him the opportunity to correct his ways after his mistake. His life in the past thirteen years would have been very different if his parents could have restored him gently.
God lead Sean to specific scriptures that demonstrated how He offers mercy and grace along with the truth.
And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory as of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth.John 1:14
The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.Psalm 103:8
Sean became involved in a small group at his church and he told them his bicycle story. God led the members of his group to come around Sean and help him see and experience God’s love. They chipped in and purchased a new (adult) bicycle for Sean. Sean used his new bicycle to get to school and work.
Next week’s post will conclude Sean’s story and explain in more detail how to heal emotional wounds.